Well...i decided to give you all an update on what`s been happening with my life lately....

So far, i am still at the same job, though only this time i`m going to be working at the cabana grill there. i hope i`m able to work there since one of our dishwashers had not shown up and is fired which really puts me in a pissed off mood since i gave him mad respect and he doesn`t show up for work one day. Also, i was able to get my doll in the mail. I made a diary for her and anyone can check it out...

That`s all the update for now...will try to post some good news when it comes to...

-Kaneda

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Ugh...

Today was sooo busy at work. I hate it when it gets busy at work in the mornings with the rushes. I also hate waking up early to get to work. Anywho, I'm hoping that this sunday will be the last sunday morning I ever work morning shift. It always is so crazy when I get to work, where everyone knows my name and not a name is left uncalled. We joke around with each other through out each shift no matter what time of day it is.

The last two nights were also hell for me since Sat. night a wedding was held at the resort I work at. The chocolate fountain that was used for the weddign was SOOO good. I already made a mess of two of my shirts from the melted chocolate that the chocolate fondue fountain made.

That's the update for today, will write more soon.

-Kaneda

Well...I finally come bearing a very good amount of good news. *wonders if anyone will die of shock* o.o

Michelle Rice (a girl I met over YIM), had introduced me to a friend of hers named Sarah. She was lonely and depressive (like me) and looked like she wanted happiness just as much as I did. Me and her met online and got to talking and found out that me and her have the same common (and uncommon) interests about each other. And the whole time Sarah and myself talked, it made me feel like there was high hopes that this girl may definately be "someone just for me". This is one girl I won't lose...I can also tell she has a pure soul when she told me that she never had a boyfriend before.

I want to be the best boyfriend I can be with her. So...this is what it's like to truly feel alive...which feels much different from other girls I met online. I guess I can finally believe that there is someone just for me....and her name is Sarah.

It kinda reminds me of how Keiichi and Belldandy met in Ah! My Goddess and I can honestly say that Sarah is Belldandy to me...I don't have to feel alone anymore...

One final note: I finally have a real valentine for once

-Kaneda

sorry i haven`t posted in a while, just been too busy.

My heart....it hurts so much....i feel like i don`t know what is what anymore. Me and Holly had gotten into an argument last night and she became a whole new person, like the Holly who loved me was totally gone from her. I don`t know why everything is starting to change around me when i thought i had everything under control....now i feel like i want to hurt myself. I guess this is how Holly always felt whenever i started to get depressed and always argued with her....god it hurts so fucking much....

i wish that things would get better for her since i heard she won`t be getting back to Alvernia in the spring. i don`t care if she can`t go back or not, just as long as i love her. since she gave me that whole new side of her, i feel like i got suckerpunched into confusion and i don`t know what is what anymore. i love Holly so much that it completely hurt me when she acted so negative and depressive. I guess this is how she felt when i acted the same way and now that i think about it, i am such a fucking idiot for doing so...

...gotta get ready for work now, will post again later...